Evaluations

Audition Evaluation- Wednesday 16th-17th September

Preparing for the audition was quite stressful. It had me constantly thinking of ways to present my vocal ability whilst incorporating elements of acting for the performance. I went from practicing "The Prince Of Egypt" to "The Greatest Showman"; I just couldn't find a song which was from the musical theatre category, that could present my capability to the max. I did consider "Your gonna Love Me" from the show "Dream Girls", however, I couldn't reach the extent of the ranges. I sat down, thought to myself, and asked, "What truly inspires me?...". I wanted to really connect with my performance and sing a song which inspires me- has a meaningful value to me. I finally decided. "Listen" by Beyonce, from the show "Dream Girls". I chose this piece as it relates and reflects my childhood story. Growing up alongside my loving mother, however having a remnant shadow of my father.

When practicing the song, it was difficult to sing loud. I would arrive home late or there would reasons as to why I couldn't sing loudly. After practicing the song and learning all the lyrics, I told myself "I was ready". It was so soon to when the auditions arrived, just waiting in the next room for my name to be called out, having me on the edge of my shoes. By the time I finished warming up, it was already time. When performing I could feel my throat begin to dry up and my heart begin to pound redundantly. My voice cracked mid performance and I thought that was it. After retrying two more times I still couldn't get back onto my feet. The concept of singing seemed so simple but felt terrifying. I decided I had enough and apologised for not being able to make it through to the end of the performance. Despite having flopped my audition, I was disappointed at myself not being able to pull through. I asked for a second chance at the audition, the teacher was so lovely enough to allow it.

The next day I listened to the song endlessly, making my way to lesson. I didn't feel as nervous as the day before as I knew what to look out for and that it was only the nerves in the moment which caused the scene. By the grace of God I was able to pull through in one take, whilst being able to give it my all. Although I performed a difficult song, what truly mattered was the quality of the performance. I immediately noticed throughout the performance all the imperfections of the piece. Next time I need to put my complete self in the shoes of the performer, therefore being able to not be nervous and exaggerate my movement which accompanies the singing. Furthermore I need to make sure I know the next line to sing: I noticed i got some lines muddled up midway but still went on. Lastly, I must ensure my voice is warmed and ready to perform... All that is left to do, is incorporate this into my next performance!